Dear Etrain

Dear Etrain,

As you may have already figured out, your dad and I love to travel so, we were really excited to take you on your first vacation. We chose Kauai because we had been there before, and since traveling with a 4 month old baby for the first time was going to be very new and possibly challenging, we figured it'd be a good to idea to go somewhere familiar and cut down on the unknowns. Plus Kauai is gorgeous.

Dear Etrain,

I just got a new computer and I had to transfer all my documents, music and photos over from the old computer. While doing this, there was one folder I had to make sure was in there, and it was the folder containing photos from when you were born - specifically the ones your Auntie Ansley took of us. Your dad and I took photos of course, but her's were so much better. I was looking through the photos last night and it reminded me of the days leading up to your arrival.

Dear Etrain,

They say it's good to read to babies no matter the age, so that's what I've been doing since you were born. You have a bunch of awesome books that people have given you - The Very Hungry Caterpillar, The Giving Tree, Where the Wild Things Are, and many more. We read The Going to Bed Book every night and even before naps. But unless you had a bottle, you were always more interested in flipping (or eating) the pages rather than listening to the story...until last week.

Dear Etrain,

Today feels bittersweet. It's 5 am. Your dad just left to go surfing, but I've been awake. Allergies woke me up, but my thoughts started racing and I'm having trouble going back to sleep. Yesterday there was a terrible terrorist attack in Paris, France. The attacks happened at regular places where people hang out - bars, restaurants, a concert hall, and more. What is keeping me awake is thinking about what if something happened to you, or your dad, or what if we were all out together? What would I do to protect you?

Dear Etrain,

I don't know why it took me so long to think of writing to you in a blog. I guess I was busy figuring out how to be a mom. I can't say I have it down completely, but you and I have a groove now (except for the part where you are changing naps on me), and I want a place to document our time together.